It was in the lowest of my lows that I turned to Him in frustration and despair and began to shake my fist and say, "why me, God? Why do I have to go through this?" Yet, when I did, I was met with a merciful, loving Savior who had nothing but compassion and peace to offer me.
I melted into Him. Instead of running from Him and trying to figure things out on my own, I fell into His arms. I literally collapsed in a heap of tears pouring my heart out to Him. And He listened. I whispered my fears and shouted my frustrations. He kept listening. Then I left it all with Him, and He picked me up and held me.
He was waiting for me to be serious about leaving it there at His feet. This time I had no choice. At one point I felt like Job. A "friend" told me that you can't live for God once you get divorced. Another "friend" said my life would be ruined and God could never use me because I wasn't willing to fake my marriage anymore. Let me just tell you something, they were wrong!
God has brought my relationship with Him to another level. I will live for God, no matter what, and God has already begun to use me in ways that I never imagined! Every single day I am so thankful that He has been holding me, and I praise Him for loving me unconditionally. Romans 8:39 says NOTHING (which includes anything anyone would say) can separate us from the love of God.
You might feel like you are trapped in an unbearable situation, but I hope you listen when I tell you this: Jesus is waiting for you. His arms will hold you. He will give you peace while He is working it all out. You can trust Him with your heart. He will fill your heart with more love than you have ever felt, and He will NEVER break your heart. And that's how I'm so happy through all these trials...I'm safe in His arms.
